| Life certainly throws you some curve balls. I have so many imporant people in my life and one more is on his way. I'm expecting my first little bundle of joy in just 3 and 1/2 weeks. We're both so excited to hold our little man, Cayden Joseph, in the short weeks to come. Life certainly has changed and oh man is it about to change even more. I feel like this emotional ball right now hehe... it's nuts...I'm a mess but an excited mess  |
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| Love.... and loving every bit of it. It's real. Joe and I. Who would have thought? I'm so incredibly happy. He makes me laugh ...esp when he says "i love you moster" lol he's a nut i tell you but he's my crazy nut (and yes he does me love moster =) because well i said so hehehehe) ...... SOOOooooooo almost done with school and then i will have my career and who knows...maybe some other great big life chaning news lol liiikkkeeee ... uhm... parent teacher conferences...no i'm not the parent im the teacher lol |
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| i open up my phone to check my newest text message and this is what it says you make me smile and make my days sooo much better than the days before needless to say he makes me happy too and makes me smile alot too....i like him... |
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| I wanted to thank you for letting me go...letting me be. We're going our separate ways, meeting new people and forming new relationships... so...thank you for letting me go.... |
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| its like feeling numb all over your body especially your heart. things you've wanted to ask have finally been asked and answers you were hoping not to hear are the answers that we given. there is no doubt in my mind that something is there but after everything we both knew emotions and beings would change...it was an inevitable happening...and its ok...i accept it. i feel like i have so much more to say but i dont know how to get it out into something that you would comprehend and understand. like its just a big ball of mess that i wish i could organize and let you in on it but i just cant because i dont know where to start or where to end .... i hate feeling vulnerable...and thats how i felt. not this moment but at that moment i did...laying there in his arms, hearing him out...him hearing me out.... all i can keep thinking is that even after everything that has happened how is it still possible to still have that...whatever it is that we have? is it real? no. is is fake? no. is it just there? no. what? i dont know whether or not im feeling sad or happy or hurt or anxious i just dont know. i wish i did know but i have questions that i just know i wont get the answers to .... |
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